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| 3rd stage of the game called "life"
1st was entering primary school
2nd lvl was entering high school
3rd (now) entering university.
Im happy with my results, its what i wanted, and i got it.. so i gotta be nothing but thankful.
Nothings happened much, the usual after uni friends dissapearing. Like yeh, some guys/girls are still trying to see eachother in these holidays, but you can't deny the fact that we are just breaking away from each other. Its like our group in a game, sometimes a player joins another guild.
Eli left to melb, take care; hope to catch up soon and best of luck to whatever you do in the future. And just like that a friends gone. srsly just like that *clicks fingers*, makes you think ey?? all the times you have with your friends dissapear, but then offcourse the memories stay.
The thing about life is. You ALWAYS start back at 1.
Your born ure dependant on a care giver, ure spoon fed, and require a set of hands to change your underwear. You grow.
You're wearing your primary school bag, heavy and freaking box shaped, back at level 1. You finish 7 years of primary school. You grow and become someone different Your back at level 1.
You enter highschool, hair gel'd short and a bittt chubby. You look up and see a freking tall white dude with a hot blonde GF. You see random small eyed skinny short asians with baggy pants playing bball, you wished you were them. You complete 6 years of randomoscity, going through bad,good, sexual, srs, casual experiences. You Grow into someone different. Back at level 1.
You enter Uni, tafe wherever highschool put u to. You face the boss called The World and independance. You wtf at everything.
I can only say up to their, cause i havent unlocked the rest of the levels, only on lvl 3. But if you do make it to the final levels of this game, Age 70-90 etc , you realise its exactly the same as being level 1 when you were first born.
Your back to being spoon fed, a person that needs a caregiver, a person taht needs to help you shit, brush your teeth, eat your food. In the end, Your you again. If your lucky you might rmember the events youve experienced in the life you've had; and thats pretty much all thats differ'ing the you at 80 years old and the you when you were 1.
What im doing in uni, i dont know anyone else doing (Media in MQ) so i guess i will have new friends, same goes to others. In a way i feel freaking good that i can converse with more people. But in a way leaving highschool and friends is like leaving a part of me behind, i guess leaving a part of you behind somewhere is a step to changing and becoming a "newer" person, finding out things you didnt know.
My friends went on schoolies 2 weeks or lsat week ago. I found it interesting how every single one. EVERY single person came home happy. Im lucky to have such a versatile and acceptng bunch of friends, and seeing them so happy and becoming much closer and understanding eachother more in a span of 5 days shows something. Who needs Gold Coast when Port Stephens and a great group of people are there? Its only in my deepest regret that i didnt go.
I dunno if people will read up to here, i guess i dont care; i feel like writing blogs help release stuff thats in my mind, and i srsly feel a lot more happier and grateful after writing this srs essay on life. But srsly people in my graed, look back at the times we had. Yr 11 camp, when i imagine yr 11 camp, i always think of it being clear blue skies green trees and colourful shirts, its a representation of how much happiness the grades given me, all i can remember about it was happiness, its really *duno word* that i can never enjoy that again with the same group of people that i love and "dont love".
And to be honest, i would re do the HSC on nightmare mode, to relive yr 10-12 again, even with assessments. Its worth it.
To sum up my Essay blog, deep srs shit, these pictures shall tell a million words some being: Courage, Domination, determination, quarantine, Jeff, Poynoy, Jeffpoynoy, wobafett.youjustlosthegame.
 
  
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| Its the last year of our journey together. All the memories we shared together is something we will take with us until the day we eventually pass away. My mentality has changed a lot through - out the passed few months.
I grew up with these people, some from kindergarten, some from yr 7 onwards ... i've had good memories and bad memories with people. But in the end, they are memories,, reminders that i will cherish when i'm older.
So i realised one night that fighting and arguing with each other is something we shouldn't be doing,, even though people still talk behind each others backs,, we should just forget about it and carry on. Move on, and realise that in the end, we all luv eachother ;).
Instead of getting further apart from everyone in our group,, i think its the time to get closer. We only have a few more months left .. and from then on, we might not see each other again. Its hard to tank,, but its something that saddens me. We'll never experience yr 10 camp again , or yr 11 camp again.
Get to know each other more,, cherish what time we have left and realise that this time of our life, is when the road diverges into new and unknown experiences, leaving the memories we all shared together behind.
.... cause in the back of our minds, we all accept each other,, cause we're that cool :)
Im hearing all these rumours about people talking behind other peoples back, and theres probably rumours about me even ... I told you guys , that you have to be sneaky .. theres always some random bullshit going around, and it could be about you. But ... the mentality everyone needs to have is,, be careful,, yet dont worry about it. Just understand that not everything is clean, yet dont do anything about it. Dont spread any random shit .. (im being hypocrite :D) and just tank it :)
So yeh the point of this shiz, is to tell everyone to stop giving other people shiz ... Last year of Highschool together, our teenage years are like gonna go by soon,, and i reckon we should all make the most of it. Its hard already with the HSC and studying, so i reckon with the little time left ... lets all rejoice!!!?
I made up with Ms K, I'm sorry for everything i guess (: you were someone that was very important in my life before ... cannot deny that.
Made up with Ms C, even though I didnt really know what was going on. And yeh... lol
tc mangs~
jeff
我喜欢你，但是 ...
我不爱你~
我有别的感觉..
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| Kool, for 2 people this will be good news :) and maybe even others. Its time to stop blogging. Jeff Xia is gonna stop.. ive done what ive wanted to do. (for people that dont know what, look at the other posts). I tried to show my friends another side to what people are like.. and hopefully some people took what ive blogged into account. Im sure most didnt, but if i could just get through to one person; it would be enough for me (: Cherish your life, you could easily lose it or have it altered in a negative way. SO, look at life through different glasses... dont always stay optimistic or pessimistic, look deeper in the angst of your society.. tthink.. learn and understand. Life is really precious. Look, even emo's who think the world hates them; only slit their wrists.. Lifes important, Live it to the fullest.
People criticised me and accused me of many different accusations, and from the bottom of my heart.. i srsly love you.. (SARCASM ALERT). I just would like to make several statements: - Before you fall in love.. ask yourself what your falling for.. is it love? lust? what is it?
- Make sure you keep your eyes clean by crying. I know a expert i can refer you to, who does it like a pro!
- People arent what they seem.
- Never be afraid to state how you feel or your opinion. If people dont like it, who gives a shit. You can keep stating your opinion, or begin to clean your eyes (with tears). Choose option 1.
- Be yourself. ZOMG this is important.. but.. how many of us know who we really are? I can say truthfully.. i dont know who i am yet.
- (cannot believe im saying this) Be happy. Everyone should be happy.. its unfortunate life isnt always happy.
- Take off your masks once in a while :P
- DONT DO ANYTHING, YOU DONT WANT TO DO. If u continue to give into society, you WILL lose your own special identity..... "Piss on Peer Pressure" (:(:
- O and Petrol will definatly hit $2.00 i swear.
- The World will NEVER be perfect, no matter how much education you give to children; the world, our world; will never be a utopia because "we are people. and people are basically all stupid" - Mr Myers.
- Oh and World Of Warcraft, ruined my life. If anyone has kids; dont let them play games like that. farkk.
- Phoenix Suns V Houston Rockets Will be finals next season for NBA (:"
Final insight of My personal love life. Its pretty hectic, its hard. You know that saying.. "You dont know what youve got, until you lose it" Or sumthing? Yeh, thats how I'm feeling. But hey, gotta move on right? Its hard moving on; because i only realised the importance of Ms M. Step by step i guess?? Its hard moving on from a girl that stands out so much in your life; only thing that can aid the process is time. Its funny, because in my passed relationship with Ms K and Ms M. Ive always been the one that doesnt move on. They all ahve new BF's, and im still the one contemplating.. and quite frankly, it hurts. What can you do though? Its not like a drama where in slow motion in the rain, the girl will come back and i will kiss her in the rain,, na my life isnt like that. I just get pwned :)
Was my blog the right thing or the wrong thing? How i see it, it was the right thing. I Expressed my thoughts in word form. I did not mention anyones name except mine, and even if you criticise me on saying how evil i am talking abt ms K and mr W; u will come back the next saturday to read more :).. know why?? because as humans, we like gossip, we like looking at a darker (or different) view of things around us.. we just love it.
I did dye my hair black, ill tell everyone why. Beacuse ive gone to the Sith.. my black hair represents the outlook of how i view my society. Dark, black and just pointless... ive become emo, i hate life, i hate all.. Na that was bshit, just wanted something different for a change :) kek.
Oh well, it was pretty hectic while this blog lasted... i hope people gained insight in my view and life,,, im not afraid if people know how i am.. i want people to know who i am... i want people to know, that there aer millions of other people just like me.. that have different views on life..
Farewell, e block; may ure masks be clean, polished and tear filled... ready to explode.. and remember jeff is sneaky.. :) PS: they are back together,, tf;; amazing how a few days can make 2 people fall in tear filled love once again.  !!!!
Sayonara Jeff Summer Xia. FIGHTING!!!! 
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